This one looks kinda emo

Today 11 AM
Obviously im bored to heck

oh so in the last picture you can see my pink nailpolish!
I only wear it when I cant pray anyways...next color(next month) will be green!
I love hunter green!Awesome cooolor!


**Am I supposed to put my life on hold
because you don't know how to act
and you don't know where your life is going
Am I supposed to be torn apart, broken hearted, in a corner crying?
Pardon me if I don't show it
I don't care if I never see you again
I'll be alright
Take this final piece of advice and get yourself together,
but either way baby, I'm gone
****

its soooooooo hard!
I frkn hate music i dont know why i keep listening to it arggg
You know that feeling lke its hurting ur soul?
Ive been noticing a change lately and NO its not me growing up!
Oh yeah that pic was the day after the icna mas conv i got heennnaa done!!!
The best speaker was of course noumann ali khan!!
It was abt peer pressure so it was of course awesomme!
sigh

Listening to Sheikh feiz on Muslims Imitating Kuffar Prt.1

Its awesome Im just having an eman rush( i think thats what you call it)
This is my first time Really crying I mean like really.
I was so stupid and stubborn before
oh god.. Its all just rushing in

wallahi im bawling my eyes out ..im watching shaykh sudais recite surah al hutamah and hes crying
so im crying for all my sins and i cant beleeve im disobeying Allah and not trying my best to worship him instead of this khara world I HJATE IT IGT IT ITTIT

THIS DUNYA IS FUL OF SIN

just came back from the icna conv. It was awesome esp nouman Khan.
hes an awesome speakkker!
i dont know why but i feel like crying all of a sudden. Its those weird freaky girl mood flunctuations...Im on my period :/
I feel like bawling my head off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh god
aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Im trying to suck it all in but its hard :///////////////////////////////////////////////////////
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB|
I hate having girl mood flunctuations!
I wish i was a guy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
argggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg
christiano ronaldo is hot...ahhh where did that come from?
im crazy...thats the most simple answer for anything
cant for tomorrow bawllllllllllllll
im happy reallly but i feel like cryingggggggggggggggggg

You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay 'em
But you won't take this thing out these words before I say 'em
Cause ain't no way I'm let you stop me from causing mayhem
When I say 'em or do something I do it, I don't give a damn
What you think, I'm doing this for me, so fuck the world
Feed it beans, it's gassed up, if a thing's stopping me
I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony(love itt-Alahhhhh)
No if ands or buts don't try to ask him why or how can he
From Infinite down to the last Relapse album he's still shit and
Whether he's on salary, paid hourly
Until he bows out or he shit's his bowels out of him
Whichever comes first, for better or worse
He's married to the game, like a fuck you for christmas
His gift is a curse, forget the earth he's got the urge
To pull his (censoreddd) from the dirt and fuck the universe

(Hook)

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

(Verse 2)
Ok quit playin' with the scissors and shit, and cut the crap
I shouldn't have to rhyme these words in the rhythm for you to know it's a rap
You said you was king, you lied through your teeth
For that fuck your feelings, instead of getting crowned you're getting capped
And to the fans, I'll never let you down again, I'm back
I promise to never go back on that promise, in fact
Let's be honest, that last Relapse CD was "ehhhh"
Perhaps I ran them accents into the ground

stupid dog keeps barking at me.
Life is just so confusing fustrating arggh
I feel like im wasting my summer and my life and this crappi music going in my ears feels so bad but i cant help it and I dont even really now abt school.
Im collecting so much sin its overweighing me. I just hope my cousins are doing all right in memphis.I wish they can come back in houston, I also hope my other drug smoking cousins are all right and not killing themselves. I miss when they came to houston and we were all little and it was fun but now everyones growing up and living their life...I told my mom an hour ago if we were doing anything today and she said after maghrib were going to a lecture so i sed thats only 5 hours it goes by fast but she said yeah imagine it'll only be a while before we die.
Im depressed
sad.
guilty for wasting my life
ugh
I might as well say what song im listening to
Eminem-Not Afraid
I love the lyrics alot
Hes a deep thinker def :)

Later

Eminem Feat. Rihanna - Love The Way You Lie

Love this.

Tomorrows Aleena's Birthday!<3
Im sick of summer..blekh.
Everytime I wanna go outside Its just too hot and humid!
sucks very muchh!
Im learning spanish from the pimsleur approach.
Lets hope it works.
today is a very blah day Because all mondays are a blah day except w,t,f.
ironic huh
why am i talking to my self anyways
i am really wierd
http://www.gamefudge.com/Good-Game-Farmer
im playing this its just like farmville on fb

I feel like I dont fit in anywhere. Last night My mom made me go to a wedding. I reallly didnt want to so I just sat outside most of the time. It was on a ledge so most of the people walked by and didnt even turn their heads and see me. I mean what if i was robber or something?? ppl need to be aware of their environment. If course my mom went outside and passed me TWO times just looking for me then finally she found me and accused of not being in there for something horrible. I just dont like going to partys and getting dressed up and crap and even more just going to them. Then i slept in the car.
I figured out what i want to be Carreerr wise!
I was inspired by a movie with Leonardo Dicaprio!
Im gna be a psychiatrist InshAllah.

http://www.debate.org/debates/Convert-Me/1/

wow this is kind of cool

I understand and recognize taht all girls have mood flunctuations because i am experiencing one now. At least im acknowledging it but i want to get rid of it...it doesnt feel good

Im so lame..The only reason i get on fb nowadays is because of the hilarious likes ahah!Laughing is good for you right? So i should always go on fb!
so now i made an account on debate.org :)

I am at the library and Im reading The Hollow by Jessica Verday its okkayish i guess.
Bored.ahh.bored.

haha me and my momma laughed at this question on ask the scholar
:
Hello how are you? My father he has a store and her sale liquor in his store. But wallah he prays like no other his prays night and day never ever miss a day. Is my father getting hasanat.

Ha i joined debate.org
Even tho im shy and dont like tlking in person doesnt mean i cant fine tone my debating skills online.
wooooh excited!
as long as its not dumb old fb
im sick of girly statuses
ex: oh my gosh i just got a mani!
ukkkkk

Eminem not afraid
and alanis M.-You ought to know

Doing career tests online-wish me luck
Books Read Recently
Swoon(My sis is reading it right now)
Fallen(awesome book!)
The Dark Divine(great great great!)

More books tomorrow